Saturday found me bleary eyed from lack of enough sleep....my eyes opened....brain did not...... having a moment of disengagement as I began to wonder what day of the week it was....until memory beads flooded into me planting themselves where they were most needed....my head.
Slumbering on and off
I must have dozed into a side street
My memory on a go slow
Having vacated the premises
Beads rolled and filled the gaps
Settling into the spaces in my head
Overflowing into folds of the pillow
Overflowing into folds of the pillow
Their circular bodies probing my cheeks
Pulling faces at me in disturbance
The light switch to my brain remained off
The beads multiplied, the pillow
Like a giant bead bean bag
Impacted its air bag mode
Wham....I was awake
Not knowing for a moment quite what day it was
It was pleasent to realise that Saturday was upon me and I could stretch and yawn like a feral feline lazing in the sun, sauntering until the day is long....
Ahhh....mmm.....I recall the day should be worth something and so I ought to be doing something...there it goes again those 'shoulds' and 'oughts'. Do we weigh ourselves down with this or is it a overhang of childhood conditioning and expections from others?
Society promotes, recognises and honours those that self sacrifice to the detriment of themselves, discounting that they are inmportant or matter, advertising they're unselfishness and praise for this is indeed deserving of a medal of honour.
I don't argue totally with this but in order to remain in good health and wellbeing and for those we love and care for (including ourselves) we need to look after us!!!!
Let us use the word 'Selfcare' rather than 'Selfish', it has softer connotations and speaks in gentle waves whereby we might begin to listen and not deny. For instance, do we go out in the car when it is on empty, never topping it up with fuel?...what would happen if we did...?? Would it function and perform to its best? Do we expect others to sacrifice themselves for us or is it just ourselves we point the high handed finger at?
Sorry to stand on the soap box and preach, but it feels vital the message is conveyed to slow up the merry go round before we fall off and break....psychologically or physically. If we refuse to listen to ourselves we will employ the headmistress to read us our lines and give us detention in whatever form.......depression, anxiety, stress, panic attacks, heart problems, obesity, exhaustion, dehydration, addiction, blood pressure.....the list is long.
Come on shake a leg
Pull the strings of your mind
Recognise the body shock
The mind games
Listen......
Is it silent and still
Or busy and never ending
Find a place that calls to you
Take a look inside your head
What is it saying to you
Turn it over look on both sides
Inside and out
Feel it in your hands
Don't leave it to one side, lying around
To be forgotten, gathering dust
Or broken from neglect
So, bearing this in mind, what does this all mean for you? How might you begin to decipher what it is you want from life? Jot down your thoughts and build on them see where they take you, decide what is important and what can wait. Set some boundaries of what is acceptable and what is not, employ a strategy, formulating a bespoke plan. Communication is vital if we are to understand ourselves and allow others to know how we feel, who we are. It may seem scary to be open and honest, vulnerability is chancy yet how will we know what's on the other side if we keep our hands by our sides and never embrace life.
If it feels safer to begin talking/exploring in a safe and confidential place and if this appeals....get in touch....
Email me at laura@lifeline-counselling.co.uk
So that's Saturday for you, the blurb is out there for anyone who comes across it.
I hope you enjoy or experience a reaction of some sort.
LAURA
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