Savouring Saturday 16th June 2012.....and so on and so on

A warm hello to anyone who finds themselves reading this......

Well it started off with savouring Saturday but the week has flurried its way on speedy wings transporting me into the week that bowed itself before me.

The summer solstice is upon us and I'm informed the nights will slowly draw in, leaving me wondering......where's that summer heat, those long lazy days, the blue blue of the never ending sky?

So it seems we've lost that elusive sunshine once again but just for now....I hope, has it disappeared abroad finding itself hiding on the other side of the world....cus it's certainly not on vacation in England!!!! Without the warmth on our backs it washes the smile off many a face and dulls the warmth of an inviting welcome.

Which takes me on a detour into invisibility....it's almost as though we can become invisible......
mmmmm or is it the middle portion of age when femininity miraculously disappears and we blend into the background.

Crossing over to the other side of the 'change'

Recognising the reflection as one that belongs to our Mums

When did those hamster pouches appear?

As though storing yesterdays lunch for today

The neck and decolletage disguising as yesterdays bed sheets

Lips disappearing in search of one another

Eyelids on permanent sleep alert

No bother, we still have the option to be heard......

By ourselves

It is less painful to accept the inevitability of becoming older and linking arms with the unavoidable changes that will creep up on us regardless.  It is a relief to be out of the 'I'm not pretty and thin enough' race for a more perfect and more beautiful face, searching out the latest shampoo for that oh so lustrous hair, to achieve a body to die for, to wax every crease and crevice, to be tan-fantastico, to knead the cellulite into next week, spanking it and sending it packing.

My body and mind at last belong to me

I own my opinion, my choice, my yes or no

If I like it... I do

If I don't....I don't

I can let it go, allowing it to forage for another poor soul to cling to

Leaching the self esteem and sense of self

To whip the back of another bent weighed down shoulder

After raking the undergrowth clean of uncertainty

Weeded out and dead headed the garden of worry

 Turned the soil and exposed the deep roots of guilt

I'm introduced and ready to meet

My pearled paradise of choice

Washed and rinsed clean

If we can dabble and dive into a little laughter, crease the corners of our mouths upward, grin and show off our teeth and sink deep into the swirl of the day.  If we can just begin raising our eyes from the ground, who knows what we will notice along the way. 

So placing one foot in front of the other, hard as it might seem at times, release those weights attached to each step and rest awhile casting aside the heavy load, if only briefly at first, breathing in the lightness and relief it brings.

Practise the release as often as you can and enjoy the splendour of 'time for you' plugging in the charger on your life and uploading a new recipe on life.

Check in with someone who cares for you and if you're short on care find time to engage with another human being, or the unconditional love of a family pet, grab your hiking boots, dig in deep and expel
the pent up stale air of anxiety.

There are people out there who are ready to listen, so find that certain someone whoever that may be.

Enjoy the coming days and until I fire up my laptop of life once more....take it nice and easy....just for a while.

Laura